[livi]

You guys never stop amazing me. The perfect combination of honesty, depth and humor. I feel better already. Thanks for all your good thoughts. I believe many of them are the key. It is just a matter of embracing it.

I think maybe I am questioning whether the natural state of mind is neutral or optimistic. Is 'having a good time' in life a lottery win that should not be expected.

I think life for many homo sapience members have turned out too complicated, too stressed out, too high expectations, too many things to do, to have, too many people to satisfy. Generally expecting too much of life in too many aspects. All the more difficult to enjoy the little things in life. Never really satisfied. Need to go basic, basic, basic..

Burned out? Washed away?

What is worrying me more than anything is that I feel a lot better after a couple a drinks. Bad sign. Bad indeed.

God I am ranting tonight. Please, keep your good thoughts coming. It really helps.