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Originally Posted by 71scgc
People look at you funny when you say you don't want kids. Don't like kids.
Like you're separated from the normal human condition.
Carter
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You're absolutely correct. I think she and her family think I'm somehow broken for not looking forward to it. Like I'm missing a paternal instinct of some sort. A gene that wasn't transferred to me.
It's worth noting that we just moved from Virginia Beach to Atlanta in November of this past year. It's also worth noting that the week before we moved I had reached the same conclusion she brought up last night, and offered her the opportunity to come to Atlanta (where her family is) without me so that she could pursue a relationship with someone who wanted the same things in life. It was incredibly difficult for me to do and caught her completely off-guard. She literally begged me with tears in her eyes not to end the relationship. I was told, at the time, that she could make do without kids as long as we could still be together.
Fast forward ten months to now, and we've had a fantastic time in ATL together. Relationship better than ever. Probably due in part to the fact that my **** head friends aren't around and she's no longer home sick. However, in the last week something clicked in her, which brought her up to speed with what I was thinking in VA and prompted the conversation.
It is a really ****ty crossroads.
1) We mutually decide to split. I'm in a city 700 miles from my family, friends, support structure. I left my company a month ago to start training for a new (commission based) career, so I have only enough money to feed myself until the end of the year. I lose my best friend, and partner in everything. However, I do continue to live as I have been, without the major responsibility of children.
2) We don't split, and one of us concedes. The first week after the decision might be a little shaky as we get back into our groove, but in the short to mid term, we'll be great. That is, until the one that conceded (which would likely be me, it seems) either learns to cope, has a change of heart, or becomes miserable.
I feel pretty numb today.