Sumthhin is Happenin & U Don't Know What It Is
 

I guess I'm gettin to the age where I feel the end of Tabs is comin. That I have more yesterdays than tommorows. I feel that I have squandered a lot of time, and that nobody is gona remember me when I'm gone. There will be nothin left of Tabs but dust.

Now what have I accomplished with my life, I got a piece of paper from a University and thats about the only tangible thing U can see. Yet that isn't all that I've done, when I was 20 I realized that I didn't know a dam thing about myself or the way people functioned. For what does it gain a man to gain the world if he loses his soul. So i set myself on the road to self discovery, to put the pieces together.

I have been totally relentless in pursuit of that goal It took a long time but I put the pieces together. Imagine a traveler on a long and dusty road through a desert....finally to come up over the top of a hill and see the promised land below. Thats generally how I have felt about myself for the past few years.

I've always had the gift to see inside the souls of men, but it took along time to truly believe it was real. It took holding someone I loved as they died in my arms to see that dieing is as real as it gets. Since then I have never doubted that reality.

When I came to the Porsche Boards, I quickily realized that I knew what the response was going to be to everything I posted, and how I should respond. I realized a word here or there could change the entire meaning of a passage. I played the game for everything it was worth and had a lot of fun doing it.

Lately though I have taken a more serious tack in my posting, writing clearly and succinctly with the purpose of effecting the way my reader/audience views the world and its events. Then perhaps somebody will remember that Tabs was here, when he is gone.

So, should we "zero out" your past posts and start you from the bottom again?

It is a very noble endeavor. Words can be fine chisels, to shape opinions and beliefs. You have a gift for words and thoughtful analysis, and a sense of humor and irony to help convey the message.

:)

Dear Tabs,

I hesitate to respond to this post. It clearly has a depth and seriousness beyond most written on this board. I have to accept my language skills are just not up to it to respond with any quality to your post.

But I can not avoid it. I have noticed lately a stream of posts á la Tabs with a whole different content. Sometimes difficult for a durn for'ner to grasp, but still very intriguing and fascinating.

As for the content of this post (if I understand correctly), you describe myself in a nut shell. The last years have been an almost desperate search for some unknown endogenous entity that would help me put my life in place. Help me come to terms. Help me find myself. Above all help me be true to my inner self.

I am not there.

As for being noticed and remembered - I don´t know any of the fellow Pelicanites, but during my short period here a few have come to my attention more than others.

Tabs belong in my top ten category of such individuals. Naturally, a top placing in a list by a total stranger and foreigner doesn´t mean crap.

I am just saying..

So you're not pushing anyone down the stairs anymore?

Tabs, you still have a meaningful quest ahead of you. You will achieve greatness once you've become proficient in the use of the word "you," and forever banished "u" from your written vocabulary. Ride on, Sir Tabby, and slay that most ignoble "u." http://mywebpages.comcast.net/NickBu...ley_2/bike.gif

For what its worth, I'll always remember you. Beyond that I don't know what else there is.

Tab,
we may never meet..but I will remember you.
Don't stop pushing.
Folks need to get down the stairs, and nothing wrong with a little assist if they hold up your escape.
Rika

Hmmm.....
Happy birthday?

Nice touch transitioning from old Tabs to new Tabs in one post. You went from several intentional grammatical errors on the first paragraph to none in the last.

learn anything about egocentricity while walking down your path?

:) :)

have you been listening to CSN&Y again?

Maxwell's silver hammer will follow...bet on it.

Wasn't that supposed to be "affecting" not "effecting"?

Tabs, been imbibing late last night?

life is over here.

this board is over there.

shouldn't get those mixed up.

Effecting is good. I suppose "affecting" can be used as well in that context.

Tabs - to think that I nearly banned you in the early years of Pelican Parts OT. Now, if you campaigned for the highest office in the USA, I would proudly hold up my "Tabs for Prez" sign. As long as you let me into the presidential buffet from time to time...

Ride on, tabs - ride on!

-Z

"Effecting" change. action

"Affecting" the way people think. influence

OK this was too much;)

Sounds more like the white album to me (is Maxwell's silver hammer on that one?)...

and in the end
the love you spend
is equal to the love you make

So is Las Vegas is the promised land?

I can't wait for the Tabs story on the Hallmark network.