Sumthhin is Happenin & U Don't Know What It Is
 

I guess I'm gettin to the age where I feel the end of Tabs is comin. That I have more yesterdays than tommorows. I feel that I have squandered a lot of time, and that nobody is gona remember me when I'm gone. There will be nothin left of Tabs but dust.

Now what have I accomplished with my life, I got a piece of paper from a University and thats about the only tangible thing U can see. Yet that isn't all that I've done, when I was 20 I realized that I didn't know a dam thing about myself or the way people functioned. For what does it gain a man to gain the world if he loses his soul. So i set myself on the road to self discovery, to put the pieces together.

I have been totally relentless in pursuit of that goal It took a long time but I put the pieces together. Imagine a traveler on a long and dusty road through a desert....finally to come up over the top of a hill and see the promised land below. Thats generally how I have felt about myself for the past few years.

I've always had the gift to see inside the souls of men, but it took along time to truly believe it was real. It took holding someone I loved as they died in my arms to see that dieing is as real as it gets. Since then I have never doubted that reality.

When I came to the Porsche Boards, I quickily realized that I knew what the response was going to be to everything I posted, and how I should respond. I realized a word here or there could change the entire meaning of a passage. I played the game for everything it was worth and had a lot of fun doing it.

Lately though I have taken a more serious tack in my posting, writing clearly and succinctly with the purpose of effecting the way my reader/audience views the world and its events. Then perhaps somebody will remember that Tabs was here, when he is gone.

So, should we "zero out" your past posts and start you from the bottom again?

It is a very noble endeavor. Words can be fine chisels, to shape opinions and beliefs. You have a gift for words and thoughtful analysis, and a sense of humor and irony to help convey the message.

:)

Dear Tabs,

I hesitate to respond to this post. It clearly has a depth and seriousness beyond most written on this board. I have to accept my language skills are just not up to it to respond with any quality to your post.

But I can not avoid it. I have noticed lately a stream of posts á la Tabs with a whole different content. Sometimes difficult for a durn for'ner to grasp, but still very intriguing and fascinating.

As for the content of this post (if I understand correctly), you describe myself in a nut shell. The last years have been an almost desperate search for some unknown endogenous entity that would help me put my life in place. Help me come to terms. Help me find myself. Above all help me be true to my inner self.

I am not there.

As for being noticed and remembered - I don´t know any of the fellow Pelicanites, but during my short period here a few have come to my attention more than others.

Tabs belong in my top ten category of such individuals. Naturally, a top placing in a list by a total stranger and foreigner doesn´t mean crap.

I am just saying..

So you're not pushing anyone down the stairs anymore?

Tabs, you still have a meaningful quest ahead of you. You will achieve greatness once you've become proficient in the use of the word "you," and forever banished "u" from your written vocabulary. Ride on, Sir Tabby, and slay that most ignoble "u." http://mywebpages.comcast.net/NickBu...ley_2/bike.gif

For what its worth, I'll always remember you. Beyond that I don't know what else there is.

Tab,
we may never meet..but I will remember you.
Don't stop pushing.
Folks need to get down the stairs, and nothing wrong with a little assist if they hold up your escape.
Rika

Hmmm.....
Happy birthday?

Nice touch transitioning from old Tabs to new Tabs in one post. You went from several intentional grammatical errors on the first paragraph to none in the last.

learn anything about egocentricity while walking down your path?

:) :)

have you been listening to CSN&Y again?

Maxwell's silver hammer will follow...bet on it.

Wasn't that supposed to be "affecting" not "effecting"?

Tabs, been imbibing late last night?

life is over here.

this board is over there.

shouldn't get those mixed up.

Effecting is good. I suppose "affecting" can be used as well in that context.

Tabs - to think that I nearly banned you in the early years of Pelican Parts OT. Now, if you campaigned for the highest office in the USA, I would proudly hold up my "Tabs for Prez" sign. As long as you let me into the presidential buffet from time to time...

Ride on, tabs - ride on!

-Z

"Effecting" change. action

"Affecting" the way people think. influence

OK this was too much;)

Sounds more like the white album to me (is Maxwell's silver hammer on that one?)...

and in the end
the love you spend
is equal to the love you make

So is Las Vegas is the promised land?

I can't wait for the Tabs story on the Hallmark network.

When all is said and done, does anyone really want to be "remembered", or is it simply ego?

Personally, I want to leave as small a footprint as possible. Better for the world if I had not taken up space for over 6 decades.

Was it the revelation that you wouldn't be able to have sex with Paul Newman?

don't tel lme...you are going to start ordering from the menu??

Tabs when I read what you wrote I laughed, I cried. It became a part of me.

Kurt, you are a homo

Oh my God, are you here all alone, Tabs?

Same here. As we get older we look back and remember the good and most of the times forget much of the difficult.

We all should be remembered and hopefully our kids or our achievements will be our legacy. Hopefully they both turn out well...

Part of the reason I have slowed down on posting here on the OT forum is that I finally realized that many of the posts on the political threads were just wasted time and I no longer have any time to waste. Its time to do worthwhile things instead of wasting time in an area that you cannot change.

For the past 6 months I have had the feeling that my time is running. In that time a close friend of mine 25 year old son died unexpectedly and my "old Boy"Airdale died unexpectedly as well. I have worried about my friend because it has been such a crushing blow to him and I still miss ole George... I just remember how his eyes would light up and how happy he was when I paid him some attention.

Also in that time I have been concerned about some health issues and have had the ole Prostrate checked and have had a Colonoscopy, both of which were OK...it really was time for me to do the screening.

In May I bought a couple of spoons in OZ land that really set me back a few dinero, and has really limited what I can do for quiet awhile. I bought rarity and condition...so when U boyz talk about $500 or a $1000 as being alot for one of your toys, I think, I wish.. I only mention this in passing as how much it has limited something I like to do.

Being able to articulate what I think and feel is my forte, what I do best. I want to reach out and touch as large of an audience as I can. As I've said I have spent along time putting the pieces together. Sometimes it amazes me what I see, lately when I watch an interview on TV with a noted personage I notice that they say a sentence or two that really revels what they are about and/or who they really are. For instnce Jack Welch (Ex CEO of GE) has been in the news lately about his interest in buying the Boston Globe newspaper. When asked how much he thought the paper was worth he shrewdly dodged the question, but then he got to talking about managing a company and that the principles he used could be be successfull in managing a company or "COUNTRY"...BINGO, HE SAID IT, one word stood out like BOLD type. There it is the reason why he wants to buy the Globe. He wants to use the Globe as a spring board to air his views on how to run country, and fix the problems it has by using his managment principles. Simple...

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OMFG, not a Jack Welch run country!!! I worked for some of his proteges. That fucher's vile.

Could be worse. I could be a preacher of a 30,000 strong congregation.

I guess the other three or four anti-Christan threads weren't enough for you.:rolleyes:

Joe I don't think U waste your time by expressing yourself on this Forum. I think that there will always be somebody, that no matter how U try, they won't get it. Its the others that you can affect, and keep focused on. So don't runaway and start tilting windmills with Rodeo...

I'm just being a smartass. I have posted numerous times that I am a Christian. I just don't let this crap bother me.

Am I missing something, or is Tabs predicting the End Times?

Maybe I'm getting all the threads mixed up.

Why don't you post a picture of yourself ripping around Vegas in that little 911S? That would be something to remember you by.

Tabs,

Understand what you are saying but I am in somewhat the same mode you are. Just battled some health issues myself and suddenly realized that at 53 I have a good 20 years left (if everything goes well) and then another 10-15 years of real decline after that, again if everything goes well.

In many ways I realized that its time to do some real good in my life as opposed to playing around as I have at times in the past. Tilting at anyone who is so stuck in their mindset as some are on this forum is just a waste of time. They may never "get it" and its not my job to try to change them. I would rather work on people and things that I can change and for the better, than beat my head on the wall with things that are not worth wasting time upon.

Tabs periodically flirts with the edge of the abyss but always (so far) bounces back.

Tabs, I LOVE YOU, MAN!

Thank You....

I've been on the edge of the abyss and have had the flames of he11 lick at my feet. Thats what put me on the road to Damascus. There maybe hurricanes, fires, floods and earthquakes but the Tree is always still there, maybe a little worse for the wear. Only time will take the Tree down.

oh great, now *you're* an evangelical preacher too?

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