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Ok, I'll chime in again, as I have suffered from depression (diagnosed) for over 20 years, a few years it 2as really bad, as I would drink until I passed out, could not leave the house, didn't smile for literally 10 years. I went through all different types of medications before they found something that helped, even a little bit.
I never had the desire to kill myself, but I also didn't care if I lived. I hate being in crowds or groups, but I force myself, this includes working environment. Am I better now, somewhat but that Monkey is still on my back and I literally have to push myself to do public things. And yes, as recently as last week I was fighting those feelings , and from the outside, no one would think I'm depressed, I mean good looking, successful, have cool cars and other toys. I have lived a good life and had opportunities that many others could only dream of. So yes, I'm a face of depression.