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Originally Posted by Racerbvd
Ok, I'll chime in again, as I have suffered from depression (diagnosed) for over 20 years, a few years it 2as really bad, as I would drink until I passed out, could not leave the house, didn't smile for literally 10 years. I went through all different types of medications before they found something that helped, even a little bit.
I never had the desire to kill myself, but I also didn't care if I lived. I hate being in crowds or groups, but I force myself, this includes working environment. Am I better now, somewhat but that Monkey is still on my back and I literally have to push myself to do public things. And yes, as recently as last week I was fighting those feelings , and from the outside, no one would think I'm depressed, I mean good looking, successful, have cool cars and other toys. I have lived a good life and had opportunities that many others could only dream of. So yes, I'm a face of depression.
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When the very people you love don't give a dam whether you are there or not..you wind up feeling let down and have no reason to do anything. So you do what you need to do to get by.
There is a lot of disapontment and pain when you are not given a dam about, that you can't totally escape from because it is a given. It is the cards you are dealt. You recouncil yourself to that fact and carry on the best you can.