[JavaBrewer]

Glad to see you are still slugging it out Rick. I will be honest though there is no way I could survive in that sort of work environment. I thrive on growing and maintaining long term relationships - but then I am also in an entirely different industry. Folks I supported 20 years ago still call me, they have my mobile number.

Sounds like you have a pretty well rounded life, still going to the gym, good marriage, and love your community. Not much to complain about really. I am a decade older than you and the last few years starting to feel real stress for the first time. Not job or life, but dealing with demented Mom, MIL, and family stuff that is going sideways. I do my best to cope, spend more time talking with my trusted friend (yes 1 of those...well 2 counting my wife), my wife, and slowing down on the weekends with some wine and a nice meal. I am not sitting on a giant retirement, few are really, and don't know where life will lead in the future. I think the tipping point for me was dealing with my aged out parents...they thought they had it all covered and in reality had nothing covered. I am picking up the pieces...but the sacrifice is substantial. I never really anticipated this.

So I lumped onto your thread and vented my own issues. Perhaps thinking that you will benefit from reading some honest alternate viewpoints and experiences. Did not mean anything other than that. Good luck.