Okay my post finally got deleted.
I'm okay, day 17 of being sober and no thoughts of turning back.
I have a home meeting I go to M-F from 7-8AM (great people) and I have several phone numbers I can call from them.
Seeing a addiction therapist and Dr.
Yes legal separation "is a thing" (but not necessary).
We are talking and seeing each other occasionally but she wants to see months of sobriety instead of days before she will consider taking me back.
Speaking of great people you guys have been super supportive and I really appreciate the kind words, PM's, phone numbers sent my way.
Carry on...
I love you guys! 