[scottmandue]

My first post was probably poorly worded "she will take me back" is only one scenario, no one knows (least of all me) how this will pan out.

IF we get back together some changes will need to be made on both sides of the street.

I have to make the change for me... I know that... not to be overly dramatic... I would be dead before the end of the year the way I was going.

In my life I have drank an ocean of booze and taken a mountain of drugs, almost checked out several times but always bounced back. Well, the bouncing back isn't happening anymore.

Thanks for your replies!