[ramonesfreak]

The Vet actually owns the practice....she is in her 60s and should know better by now. We still go there unfortunately.....but we rarely see her. They have a new nice younger vet who we like but when I step in there and I walk past that room i want to cry.

I have given the Vet a pass in my mind....but I do carry the weight of this around every single day. Our other dog died shortly before but he was extremely sick and he was practically laying there half dead already so it felt a relief.

Its funny how these animals impact us. I sat holding my grandfather's hand when they turned off the life support....felt his hand go cold. Found my other grandfather dead on the kitchen floor, on and on so many people I cared about that I have lost but these pets are sometimes harder to accept and deal with what ends up happening....maybe because they are so helpless and we know they depend on us for everything so we blame ourselves.

I dont have kids so the dogs are literally my family. ug.

I was just listening to the news and heard a local story about a faimily's horse that was pregnant and somehow strayed of the property and someone shot it with a shotgun and killed it.....Skytrooper probably heard it too since he is local to me. How F'd up is that. How sad. IDK, i just have a deep love for animals so this stuff really gets to me.