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thank you all soooo much my brothers..I’m doing ok I guess. Moments of joy that her long suffering is over and that I can now get on with my life, followed by moments of extreme sorrow. The house is way too quiet. I had the ugly cry yesterday. The boys are always with me and make me smile. My kids come in for a couple days tomorrow. We can have a group cry.
Per her wishes there will be no service, no obituary, no fuss. I get her ashes back on Wednesday and I’m shipping some to friends all over the country in places we have lived to be sprinkled in her favorite places. I’m planning a celebration of her life party probably early August when the Persied meteor shower occurs. She would like that. She is still with me though.
I’m not a religious guy but I believe in the spirit world. We have always fed the hummingbirds. I told her that when she left her shell of a body that she would come back to me as the first hummingbird I saw each year. The morning after she left us when I pulled back the drapes there was the first hummingbird of the season..,,,a female. She’s been back every day. Indeed she is still with me.