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Right now im sitting here thinking... god I dont want to turn 23 in Oct. cause nobody likes you when your 23. I wish I could go back to 18. Currently Im drinking and smoking more weed than I ever have in my life while holding down a very good job as a produce broker and making pretty decent money. I still live with my parents so I can save to buy a house or condo in the near future. I never go out and have fun because I have to wake up at 6am for work. I am a decent looking guy, but never meet any cool girls and have been in a serious dry spell for about a year now. I dont really dig the chicks you might see at a bar or something, I like them a bit more real. Meanwhile all of my friends are in college and partying every night. I've been trying to find a "happy place", but its hard to get used to a full time job schedule when it seems everyone else is having fun. My emotions go freakin wild all the time, like im bi-polar or something, my dreams are getting crazier every night, maybe im just really confused about life. I've been starting to understand Tabs lately. Is this normal? I really didn't hold back here. Did some of you older guys feel like this too?

Im open to suggestions or advice, thanks for listening.....I feel better already.

O yeah, I think between surfing all the time and racing once in a while I manage to keep my sanity.