I feel for you smoak! My first marriage was to a woman with quite the trust issue. Said boyfriend did this, said boyfriend did that...I don't trust you because of what said boyfriend did...
...had several friends try to make me see the light up to and including my reception.
Her own mother even tried to talk me out of it.
I did what Ronin described...rushed in...and felt like the standing tree in Moneyguy1's post.....
Marriage lasted 6 months and I left TENS of thousands poorer...have I mentioned how much I love community property states?