[Wrecked944]

Hey, sorry to hear about your situation. I spent decades battling clinical depression and anxiety together. At my lowest point, I was actually out of work for over a year and ended up losing everything. So don't take this thing lightly. It's a serious condition.

That being said, it can also be amazingly easy to treat. After going through a string of well-intentioned, but ineffective doctors, I got a referral to one of the best psychopharmacologists in New England. He cost me a small fortune ($300 per hour), but he solved my problem with stunning efficiency. He prescribed meds very aggressively, monitored the results with an eagle eye, and adjusted dosages and chemicals like a master mechanic adjusting valves and carbs. So within a very few months after meeting him, my disease, which had once literally destroyed my life, was just a bad memory. I was (and still am) completely surprised by the dramatic turnaround.

So the moral? Don't skimp. Get the best doctor you can right away. My doctor charged more than the rest. But in the end, he cost less than the doctors who wasted a lot of my time and didn't solve the problem. Brain chemistry is a tricky thing. And most GP's and even most psychiatrists don't really understand it. So going to a super-qualified specialist really helped me a lot (obviously I am a big fan of medication - some of my colleagues at work have called me the poster child for "better living through chemistry").

And one more thought on the topic...take care of yourself. For some reason, we who suffer from these disorders seem to feel the need to do way too much and "fight" the symptoms. I did it and so did my friends with similar disorders. But now I say, "Fuk that". I recommend you take it easy, get some comfort food (delivered if necessary), watch the comedy channel and relax. If you had a broken leg, nobody would expect you to run a marathon, right? Same with anxiety (or depression). Feel free to blow off life for a while and let your doctor(s) figure out what to do.

Anyway, please feel free to contact me any time about this. I'm very comfortable talking about it. No problem. Good luck.