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OK my friend you taken the first and most important step...your asking for help.

I do think you need a professional to help....It's a matter of being able to talk to someone who you can trust and who will not be judgemental about what you are feeling. I think talkiing will give you a sense of relief..that you have gotten what your fears are onto the table....Sombodies listening to how I feel.

This maybe a bit early in the discussion..but I feel medication can help for the short term..to get yourself back on an even keel....but medication doesn't untangle the deeper issuses of why you are having these attacks...

I personally think you keep things inside, until something triggers a release of these feelings all at once...I think your feeling are legitimate and perhaps need to be able to learn how to recognize the the build up of feelings and learn how to keep the valves open by talking about your feelings.