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I also want to clear something up. In case there is any confussion as to what exactly a panic attack is. Imagine thinking that you are flat out about to die, like death is staring you in the face, can't breath, pacing like a mad man, getting dizzy, your vision is blurring, hand go numb, sweating, hot and cold flashes, dry mouth, and fatigue all at once. This was what i felt like 6 weeks ago, with an oxygen mask strapped to my face on my way to the hospital. Since then i've been rebuilding by concoring fears, but it's hard, almost like your mind is working against you. BTW, i've been taking xanax for awhile, and i hate that drug, so i only take it when i know i NEED it. It does do the trick though, but i've never been good at giving in to the easy way (i own a 911 remember, lol). Thanks everyone for the support, and if somone is reading that thinks they are battling with this, please do yourself a favor. Admit it, seek help, and go from there. If one of these meds starts turning my life around, i'm going to really kick myself in the a$$ for the past 6 years and my stupidity during that time.