It is critical that you find a good therapist to go with the meds. The meds just help open the door. I'd be happy to talk with you (not as a doctor of course, but just as a guy who 6 months ago was in your shoes). Call me if you want (just remember that I am eastern time and I go to bed after around midnight. Refer to yourself as 1fastredsc the first time, otherwise I won't know you
-Mark
617-599-0071