[M.D. Holloway]

the real problem is no self respecting mother would drink vodka with tonic - gin is the sin, vodka is merely water with an afterthaught. You, Tabs have a dimished veiw of mommy - for a reason to be revealed later - she didn't meet up to your expectations once you were old enough to understand the attraction a man has towards a women other than his mother. She is a shadow to you now - something that you will chase but never catch, but not much more. A calling from within you - that of a scared and bewildered child in a man frame looking to make sense of a senseless absurd world. Craving perfection in a car, a dream, a mother who, still drinks vodka with tonic - perfection is lost, paradise is lost - Tommy Wolfe was right Tabs - you can never go home again...