[bigchillcar]

feel your pain...i turned 40 about a month ago. i was so down about it, anticipating it, that i turned off my cell phone and just asked my family to stay away from my house that weekend..didn't want company. in the past couple of years i've lost love and my career..i have no kids..just me alone, turning 40. on the other hand, i was out this weekend and i saw a man having a 40th b-day party. the band played a song for him and he got up and danced with his mother...really kinda made me regret not doing something similar. my mom has been like my best friend through all of the problems of the past couple of years. in hindsight i should have done something similar with her and also brought along my brother and sis in law. once the initial shock begins to wear, i guess it gets easier.

lol..tabs.
ryan