yeah..i hit 40 this past january and it bothered me like no other birthday ever has. it's been a tough past couple of years..i had to quit my career and am trying now to start over in another field..lost my love..so now i'm alone on top of it. i 'celebrated' by myself in a silent house with nothing but a steady rain falling outside..poignant. okay, self-pity rant over..for now..lol.

ryan