[mudman]

Ryan and Janus, thanks for the offers on help. I know it is hijacking, but oh well, it may help the original poster anyway:
I haven't felt well in a long time. Lately I've felt really crumby. The drive to do ANYTHING is pretty much gone. Sometimes I don't even want to lurk on Pelican. I am smart, and used to have a good sense of 'myself', my emotions, and was able to think very deeply about things in a very unbiased way. People sought me out just to talk. Lately I haven't accomplished anything worthwhile.

I know what needs to be done, I know what needs to change, I know what I want to be. I think I know how to do it too. I just can't.

I procrastinate with everything. I've been meaning to write something like this for a long time asking for some pointers, just haven't done it, thanks to the original poster here I am.

I suck, and I'm tired of sucking. I don't really need to un pimp my auto, so any advice is good.
-Jeremy