markus..it's a 'double-edged sword' for sure. dating is harder in my 40's, especially since i'm essentially starting over financially, trying to start a new career..and the women in my age range, likei said, judge a man fiercely here by his ability to support the lavish lifestyles so many of them now seem to demand. i may stay single for quite some time. too bad you aren't in arkansas..lol..i'd have someone to wrench on the p-cars with, drink a little beer and tell lies about the 'old days'..
hang in there, it may get a little worse before it gets better, but that 'better' is worth taking back from her. life's too short to live with a ***** and die..
ryan