[livi]

I am overwhelmed. Your contribution is price less.

I believe there is somebody I need to get better acquainted with. That somebody being ME. A professional is probably very good advice.

Not least, and here comes the sad part, since thinking back I would say 75% of me have wanted to leave her for the last three years. I think I just donīt have the guts. I can now recognize the coward anti aggressive wimp inside myself. I need to be thoroughly abused and trashed before I can muster enough energy to make it stop. What a tragic individual I have turned into. A true victim of myself. A genuine looser.