[Joeaksa]

Originally posted by livi
I am overwhelmed. Your contribution is price less.

I believe there is somebody I need to get better acquainted with. That somebody being ME. A professional is probably very good advice.

Not least, and here comes the sad part, since thinking back I would say 75% of me have wanted to leave her for the last three years. I think I just donīt have the guts. I can now recognize the coward anti aggressive wimp inside myself. I need to be thoroughly abused and trashed before I can muster enough energy to make it stop. What a tragic individual I have turned into. A true victim of myself. A genuine looser.

You are not a loser by a long shot! A loser would sit there and take it for the next 20 years then someday ask themselves what happened to their life and why did they waste it with a person like this.

You realized that this was not working out and have now taken steps to correct it. The tragic part of this is that its taken several years of living with this woman to get you to this point. Now take some steps to your survival and the survival of your child. There are some excellent points on this thread, print it out and embrace the ones that you feel comfortable with and start moving forward.

You owe it to yourself and your child to make a future for the two of you. Your ex-girlfriend has made her bed and let her lie in it, alone or spoiling someone elses life.

You are a doctor. Start healing yourself then save your child. Move on to a friendly place in life then start moving ahead!
Joe