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Well, what spilled over on me from tabs "soap opera" was excellent reading - pure heart nīsoul like every one of your 100 posts.

Joe, I lay awake last night reading print outs over and over for two hours. There is material worthy of a doctorīs thesis. Awesome and humbling.

Don, no time limit has been set besides "Marry me or beat it!". The ultimatum was handed to me a week ago. Repeated several times a day since then. Our home has been a was zone these last days. Me trying to calm it down for the benefit of the children. At one point, one night, I lost it - gave up. Ok, if this is what you really want. Got dressed and opened the front door - mentally just screaming to get away from her. At that point she raised the stakes dramatically. Looking like a total maniac, with a mad, deranged look in her eyes she turned everything around screaming - if you walk out that door I will make you suffer and hurt in a way your nightmares would compare to a pic-nic. You will never see your daughter again, she will suffer - and it will ALL BE ON YOUR CONSCIENCE !!

I just caved in. Puddle on the door step. Closed the door and piled up on the floor. Terrified what she might be capable of.