[livi]

Calling for collective forum wisdom (again).

I feel I am heading for a turning point in my life, where I either will have to 'go religious' or find some other daily philosophical strategy for coping with the fact that death is inevitable. Some day - tomorrow or in fifty years - I will exist no more. I canīt seem to come to terms with or even comprehend my own death. Every individual is his is center of the Universe around whom everything and everybody else revolves. Taking myself ie my soul and consciousness out of the equation is as difficult to comprehend as it is terrifying to realize.

The hundred per cent certainty of death also has an impact on everyday living. I have a hard time fighting off a feeling of how meaningless my life and daily life acts are in the larger perspective. Nothing much feels overly important.

Hence, I have a creeping sensation of missing out on something - emotionally or otherwise - in everyday life. Everyday going by is another day wasted - and one day closer to death.

I need to find my "center", some philosophical standpoint as a 'daily strategy'. I want to reach a mental status of content. I want to wake up in the morning feeling I lead a happy, content and even meaningful life.

I know its all in my brain and personality - I just canīt find it.

And so, here I am (again), looking for words of wisdom - or perhaps at least recognition.

How do you reflect on your self and the world in order to feel this life is worth while.

Please note, I am not being suicidal but rather philosophical.