[Jims5543]

Its hard for me to get my mind around how someone decides to end theirs. I have never thought it to be an option, mostly because I am too aware of others feelings.

My 2nd in command at my office. He is also my bro in law by marraige and a great guy. The day I hired him on was a turning point for me, I had finally found someone who gave a crap about their job like I do.

When he was 8 years old his father commited suicide. Leaving his mom with 5 children to raise on her own.

His father was a brilliant man, he was a scientist and owned a lab in Arizona. I do not know too many details other than that. It seems he was not very good at math or taxes to be exact. The IRS came down on him like ton of bricks. They raided and seized his business and home on Christmas eve. Kicking the family out onto the street. The moved to a crappy apartment and a few days later his dad put a gun in his mouth and check out.

A lawyer gave the family one of his rental homes to live in while he took their wrongful death case against the IRS pro bono.

I bet you can guess how that turned out. He had to drop the case in a hurry and geve the family money to move to Florida and forget about the whole thing.

2004 and 2005 we were hit by 3 hurricanes. The 2 in 2004 were 20 days apart and really knocked all of us off our feet. I was unsure if I would still be in business and was really really depressed and bummed out. More so because I might have to let 10 employees down, who were all looking to me for some sort of guidence. I was catatonic sitting on a bed in a Howard Johnson motel room while we sat waiting for the second storm to pass evacuated from home. My bro in law was there and he was freaked out by my appearance.

Fast foward 2 years to about 3 months ago and I get a letter from the IRS and a field agent coming to my office poking around while I was out. She even took pictures of everyones cars in the parking lot out front. Very itimidating.

My bro in law had a flashback to his childhood and freaked out. He told me the story about his dad and begged me to be cool and talk to him if things got ugly with the IRS. He was scared we were getting shut down.

It seems there was a mistake on my tax return and after an audit with my CPA I actually got a refund. LOL!!

My bro in law was so scared those couple of weeks he thought I was going to follow his dad.

Markus, being aware of yyour family history is a great first step in identifying a problem.

Go and read the theads on depression on here. They were real eye openers for me and probably saved my wifes life. She is on meds now and mostly because of what I read on here. One members comment on here still rings in my head. He said that after he got on the meds he realized he was broke and now he was fixed. Your a doctor, make sure you get help if you think you might be broke.