[Jims5543]

Sammy to an extent I agree with you. Hence my not wanting to go to a doctor. Doctors today just want to prescribe the next new drug to you and send you on your way, its all bout the 5 minute office visit these days.

I refuse to have some clown start me on drugs so I fight a battle every day to try to concentrate on my work and get it done.


I know for a fact there was something wrong with me growing up. Maybe I was indeed ADD or Hyperactive as they put it. I had a lot of trouble learning in elementry school and did not actually start to be able to read until 2nd grade. I was always behind the other kids and I thank god now the teachers pushed me through. Once I got to middle school it started to click and I could concentrate long enough to grasp enough to get by. Once in High School I was able to sit and do my homework for the next class while I listened to the teacher lecture on the topic of the day. I was a B student in HS and never did any homework at home and never studied for tests.

In my 20's and early 30's I worked as a drafter and was a machine pulling 12 hour shifts with barely a break. I could do the work of 2 people.

I got my business off the ground working outside as a land surveyor all day and doing my own drafting all night. Never needing a break.

Then in my late 30's I started having problems sitting down and tackling a task. I am at war with myself trying to keep my mind on one place, it is everywhere.

If Procon sees this he can attest, he was talking to me and I disapeared while sitting in front if him. I know he could tell but was polite and did not say anything. I had no clue what he just said to me, how wacked out is that? When I came back I realized he was waiting for a response from me and I felt like a fool having no clue what he just said.

My wife gats sick of it too I just check out and start running something through my mind, it can be anything from trying to remember if I did something, to thinking about my last track day session and how I was hitting turns to something someone said to me a week ago that I decided to recall at that moment that had nothing to do with the matter at hand. I cannot control it it just takes over my mind like I have lost control of it. I am aware of what just happened and that I blanked out. Sometimes I am not so aware but can tell by the look on the persons face that was talking to me.

My brother in law is classic, he will walk away, sometimes I will not even realize I blew him off like that and it will take me 10 minutes to say to myself, Hey Scott was trying to tell me something and I will go to him and ask what he wanted. He just shakes his head.

If you are not going through this you have no clue how frustrating it is.

I only gave examples of conversation situations, sitting down to do something alone is an adventure, 3 ring circus is a perfect description.