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Originally posted by tabs
So U feel alot of pain, hearbreak and sorrow, and sometimes you wish you could do so much more.
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Yeah Tabs, I do. Truth is my job is slowly breaking me down. But I'm truly OK with that. It's part of the price. I could try to remain a bit more detached I guess but it's just not the way I am. I am tremendously grateful for the opportunities I've been given. If the price I must pay is emotional exhaustion, that's fair. I've been in 9 to 5 grind-out-the-day jobs before. They are much worse.
Last night I woke up at 2 AM worried about a patient with a confusing radiology report. I stayed up the rest of the night worrying and planning. Last month I attended two funerals. One because my patient lost a child. I can't count the times I've cried with my patients. Too many times. It's true my job can be filled with heartbreak and sorrow, but there's joy too.
When I'm done I'll be exhausted and spent, but the pain I've endured will be nothing compared to the guy who breaks his back in the coal mines or watches his children starve in some third world country. I'm lucky.