[motion]

Milt,

You sound like you really need to get out of Dodge. Staying here can't be good for you. Have you thought of moving to a small town with low overhead and working at the local hardware store? Maybe supplementing your income with some eBay sales activity? I know I'm oversimplifying things, but sometimes drastic times call for drastic measures. I'd hate to see you being miserable and not doing anything about it.