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I put out alot of energy in Round 1, and came to the point where I had to flip the switch off and let myself rest.

Lubby I don't get it, your a responsible guy with a family. If U had a tumor growing out of the side of your head, you'd be at the MDs so fast...yet when faced with an equally real problem of "Panic Attacks" your willing to roll the dice and take some prescribed pills the doc gives ya. What I don't understand is why ya don't want to get to the bottom of the problem, fix it and move on. YOur letting the underlieing problem stand while using Duct Tape to hold it together. One thing U should be aware of that taking those pills will over time change the Receptors in the brain and will creat a dependency on them. Well I've said my piece and now U can do what ya want.

Well Moses I have given alot of thought to U. To make it real simple when I meet U I have met your Father. You have a rough and ready quality that is sometimes abrasive like sand paper, U tend to push away the feeling when they get to painfull or go on overload. Everybody goes on overload at sometime in their life. Thats when ya meet MR Rough and ready.."stop yer whining boy"

What I've done is grab ahold of that pain, held it close and let it ride. Over time the pain mutes itself and you don't feel so much pain anymore but a gentleness and compassion..Love if U will. Its called being Transcendent.

I've gotten the feeling that U know exactly what I'm talking about. So much for now, I gotta go to sleep.