[livi]

Dave,

Sorry to hear about your situation. I can really sympathize with you on that.

To be remembered on ones b-day is a heart warming thing. For me a phone call is enough. I am not that keen on big celebrations either. On my 40th b-day I got a coffee mug with the Porsche logo. Perfectly content.

I can see how your whole situation is mounting up to a psychological burden. Sometime between 30 and 45 many of us go threw a period of reflection, even 'crisis'. What have I to show for so far in my life? Waste of time? What is my place and calling?

I think this period will come upon most people, whether they feel lucky /successful or not. More or less half time in life and one stops to ponder on what to do - where to go - who to be with etc.

If that period coincides with negative experiences the total experience will be twice as bad.

Not uncommon that it will rise to the surface on b-days, Christmas etc.

I have no good advice to give. Every personīs situation is unique as well as the person himself. Only, donīt be too pessimistic. Give it time. Donīt rush into changes and remember - pain has a tendency to automatically subside as time goes by and problems have a tendency to resolve themselves in a random fashion.

And a very Big Happy Birthday, Dave!!