[Superman]

I have.

I'm one of those folks who seem exceedingly calm. Very relaxed, or so it appears. In reality, the calm thing is a facade. It is learned. It is just not feasible for me to exhibit my anxiety in my daily life. It is NOT helpful. I occasionally have those small panic attack things where you feel like you're not getting enough air. But as I say, all that is quite manageable.

Then one day a couple of years ago, I was in a situation where someone important to me......bailed. Abandoned me, basically. I didn't really know how or why this person's presence was important to me. Still don't. That person is gone now. But when I was trying to deal with that, I got to the point where I had to go see a trusted friend and just let him make decisions for me. We went to see a doctor. Eventually I went to another doctor. And then another. There was Zanax and there were a couple of other medications. Ultimately, I saw a doctor that realized I needed meds to simply SHUT MY MIND DOWN. Kind of a re-booting, thing. Valium. That's what worked. A week or two of that, and I was back on my feet. Everything's been fine since.