Rammstein,
Keep your chin up! There are so many thing to look forward too. Oh by the way...I know about the engineering issues, bureaucrasy and the shi-tty collective partnership you supposedly had with your company...Been there done that nonsense..anyway-
IMHO - what do you enjoy doing?...are you the engineering type? Go after something you enjoy and forget about the money for now.. I think you just need a break and some time to think positive... I was getting like that and decided to buy my life long dream a Turbo Carrera..Now I'm happy and looking for ways to make money in the Porsche industry...
Just a thought...SMILE