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Or you gotta su(k it up kid....ya gotta be tough...

I have been acutily aware of how tormented you feel at times, but I believe U have reached an accomodation with yourself, that U only have two hands and can only do so much. That death is an ineviatable for all of us. No need to rehash any of this.

However, your harshist critic is yourself. You have a hard time forgiving yourelf. That must grate on you something fierce. I would suggest that you sit down and start to think about how much you Love. Your parents, wife, children, friends, dog, your work, your hobbies. To clarify, I'm not talking about how fortunate you are to have what you have, but rather how fortunate the people who are around you are. Your capacity to love them.

Life is harsh, sometimes cruel a vertible blizard of pain. However to Love or care for something mitigates the pain and transcends the harshness with kindness and gentleness of soul.