[johnco]

anyone ever experience this? I am right now. I've been stabbed, shot, burnt, broken, crushed, sliced, diced and even run over by a lawnmower. but I think I'd submit to all that again rather than experience those ulcers. since Monday morning I've had about 6 hours sleep and actually got a donut down wed. morn. other than that it's been milk and water and that takes a lot of time and a lot of cussin. lost 13 lbs in 4 days. . after radiation today.. it was so bad that if a 18 wheeler turned in front of me, I wouldn't have tried to avoid him. delirious from the pain, I had a hard time keeping the car on the road. nothing dulls the pain.. believe me I've tried. and I can look forward to another month of this. not sure I can tough it out. cut my calf off.. no problem.. wrap it with toilet paper and hit the emergency room in the morn. a cut to the bone.. duct tape until you find needle and thread. dislocated finger.. pop it back in... but this!!!! nothing I can do, nothing I can take will end the 24hr pain like I've never felt before. hard to describe other than imagine someone taking a grinder to your mouth and throat and tongue, buff it up real good, add some muriatic acid, shake and stir, add salt as needed. someone shoot me please