[johnco]

I'm doing fine. i've got it whooped for now. I've been hanging because the hallucinations usually start kicking in about the 5th day without sleep. full force madness at 7 days.. I like those and they're running late. maybe nothing's happening because I cheated and slept an hour or so each day. just now I zoned out for 15 minutes and woke soaking wet.. twice. actually the pain isn't bad right now and I only feel it when I quit typing or concentrating on something else. I managed to remove some bad skin from the back of my throat so it feels better now that i can spray it down. now that's hard to do. try holding a flashlight just right down your throat, depress your tongue, grab some meat with tweezers and suppress your gag reflex at the same time while looking thru cheap glasses that just don't line up with what you're trying to see. honestly.. I would really enjoy a big juicy steak, a hambuger, a taco.. anything.. it's not that I'm not hungry. it the feeling of trying to swallow a redhot piece of steel covered in glass that expands as you try to swallow. water, ice, icecreme.. even my own spit hurts like hell. getting down past that spot behind my tongue that's cherry red I can't quite get to yet is the hard part. pain is respecting my authority right now. hmmm maybe the delusions are here now and I wasn't paying attention. type something and letters missing or somewhere else. a compose letter box just popped up and the quick reply box keeps changing and realigning the text. way cool. if it gets bad tomorrow I'll call one of my doctor friends and collect on a few favors owed to me.