Sad to hear it. I've lost numerous friends and acquaintances to drugs and/or alcoholism, sometimes directly and sometimes indirectly. But always that was the cause, no doubt about it.
People who are not addicts or do not have that addictive personality gene will never understand how someone can continue with such self-destructive behavior. It truly defies intelligence; people can be brilliant and destroy themselves, or others can be very bright but not understand it if it does not affect them personally. "Why don't they just quit?", or tell a story of someone they knew who just "grabbed the bull by the horns" and stopped using on their own, etc...
I lost a beautiful, young woman friend to H just over a year ago, professional working model in the big city, nice person, etc... Her parents back in VA. have been paying her cell phone bill all of this time just so that they can hear her voice(?), I still have her in my phone and can call and hear her laugh during her outgoing message. So damn sad. Last conversation I had w/ her, she told me how after a year clean & sober she had had enough of that stuff and was back to using drugs. I told her to be careful, (knowing she was a junkie), that she could die. It did not register. (No pun intended). She was going to sell me her old Mustang convertible that was covered in dust in the garage.
It sucks.
