[berettafan]

we've spent the past 4 months or so watching my wife's father die of cancer. he is seemingly in his final days and it has been enormously hard on my wife and her mom. her father has been in and out of the hospital with pneumonia, delirium and paranoia from the pain meds, tearful goodbye's in the ICU two weeks ago (then released the next day!)....it's been a very rough time and has colored my view of the world in a way that will probably never change. i can't bear to look at pictures from Christmas because my wife's father was in bad shape that day. new year's, which has never been a big deal to me, was just another day off for my 3yr old and I without the pleasure of my wife's company because she's been to the hospital and assisting her mom and father.

i personally don't know the pain you are feeling but i am getting a glimpse at it through my wife and....well i feel for you. i think it's great that you are able to discuss it here on the forum.

the world ends for thousands of people every day; what a statement that is. people are enduring pain that some of us can not imagine (could be our neighbor or a coworker or the lady in the checkout line.....could be anybody) and i, for one, will be a lot more gentle with people i am in contact with in the coming years. you just don't know.

God bless you and your family.