[svandamme]

depression has a way of clearing itself when the booze is out of the picture

but the way you mention that you think you can't, that sounds like addictive thinking
i recognize it from when i quit smoking , internal conversations "no point in trying, i'll blow it in a week, so i might smoke now and save myself the hassle)

you'll have to test yourself

i never had a drinking addiction , even if i was a very heavy drinker, but i had no problem not drinking for a week, other then being a bit bored, and effed up with daemons to fight...

with smoking, i know i'm addicted, i know i can quit as well, but i smoke because it helps me not burn up at work... and i need my paycheck, so my priorities are clear...

a real drinking addiction however ain't as compatible with work...