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My ego is definitely an issue. There is no question that I pride myself on a very high standard of firearm safety. I have no intention of lowering my standards.

My wife is my world. Once I had a handle on the situation I definitely blamed (blame) myself. We attended a three-day firearm safety course last summer. I hung on every word spoke for the three 8-hour lecture sessions. I assumed she did the same.

Maybe angry isn't the right word. Maybe fear is a more appropriate concept. Maybe I was more scared than I've ever been in my life, and I interpreted it as anger. Like I said, I was in new territory and didn't know what to make of it. Maybe I was angry at myself for being so scared.

I won't be inviting anyone new to join me at the range in the future. I will stick to my group of similarly experienced and skilled shooting friends. I won't loan out my shotguns anymore. I will recommend safety classes and firearms training to anyone who asks me about shooting. After today, it is apparent that I took on more than I can handle, and I need to leave firearm instruction to the experts.