[svandamme]

looking at grandma withering away at this time... 88 , broke her pelvis a month ago... grandpa left now close to 2 years, it's been down hill since, no longer able to live at home, nursing home, not accepting the situation... now the pelvis... weak heart and not really eating anymore...

She had a good long and healthy life, but there's no joy left, and who can blame her...
i was like the 6th kid there, grew up , it was the only real home i knew as a kid, since my parents are the kind that should never have made kids in the first place...

So all i care about now, is how to make it easier for her... whatever the cost... just suggested to the kids (my uncles and aunts), that maybe we could try and get her back into her home.. She never accepted leaving her place for the nursing home (there was no other choice she could not get the care she needed)... If she goes to the terminal care ward in the hospital, (paliatieve we call it, dunno what you call it in English)... there will be somebody from the family with her anyway, day and night... so maybe with home nursing... that might work too , and give her to peace of her own house...

it's a terrible thing this getting old stuff... i seldom feel bad when i hear about somebody crashing in a big ball of fire... one minute you have the time of your life, the next you're charcoal... There is no agonizing wait for death... no years of decline in fysical or mental faculties.. Not having to see yourself become an old person who can't even wipe his own ass , or even keep the crap from coming out till it's supposed to... i'll take the big ball of fire any time over that...