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I was supposed to meet him after work today to talk. I hadn't heard from him all day and texted him when I got off at 4 to ask if he'd be available at 6ish. I didn't hear back until a while later. He called from the local county low rent hospital. Apparently one of the cops that went out Sunday when he pulled his stunt stopped back by today and asked him how he was doing. He said "not so good" so the cops took him to the "free" hospital. He called and said that he hadn't seen a doctor yet (I assume it had been hours) and was going to check himself out. He said that he had a list of homeless shelters and was going to one of those and would call when he got there. I told him to be careful and told him to let us know that he arrived ok. I think he was assuming we'd run down to the hospital to pick him up.

I didn't hear anything back for a few hours when the doctor called. He asked me to give him some history. He said that Justin was a good prospect for assistance because he knew that there was a problem that needed to be fixed and said that they could get Justin some professional care. He then was very adamant about Justin being able to speak to his mother. I was very adamant about that not being a good idea, but she over heard and said that if it would help that she would talk to Justin. I'm still not sure that it was a good idea, but she did talk to him. I guess he apologized. She basically told him that she loved him and always would. He asked her if that was it. I think he is still angling for us to go get him, but we aren't. The little prick, but he's the one that's got problems, so it's not surprising or unexpected that he'd still be pulling crap. I told him that we were very happy that he was going to get help. I asked him to only talk to me for a while. I'm sure that he's been thinking that it's been my idea to let him hit bottom and if he got to talk to her that she'd rescue him. For better or worse, she's so stressed out by the whole situation, that she's not trying to.

Hopefully he's a few steps closer to being at rock bottom and will actually take advantage of some of the professional help.

Holy crap, it feels like this is consuming my life. I like to relax a bit when I come home from work, but being at work is actually more relaxing.

Based on Rob's scale above, I seem to run the scale from Anger to Frustration over the course of a day. At this time, I do spend most of my time wanting to kick his butt, so I guess I'm mostly angry.

Thanks all for letting me vent.