[Hebrewhomeboy]

I'm here in Florida, home on leave visiting my brother and parents. My brother, dad and I went out to see a movie so mom could rest (flu), and when we came back she had taken her own life. There were no warning signs at all, she was fine that morning. None of us know why. All she left was a note saying she loved us all. I don't want to type much, still pretty tough right now. My brother and dad and I are holding each other together. It's hard to accept that she's really gone, especially that she did it herself. At least I got to see her one last time though, and got to cook her breakfast the other day. It's crazy, not really sure what to say here. Everytime I close my eyes I see her laying back on the bed though, gun in hand and blood from her nose and mouth... It's horrible. al;ao;ighal;skaoir ugh.