[M.D. Holloway]

TABS - it has exploded...all 0ver the wall, down the hall and out the door. She feels like the world is passing her by and that her kids are embarressed by her and that she has zero worth. No matter what is said or done she is set in her spiral.

True, it is a bunch to hold on our shoulders. I want to make sure he understands, although he is only 10, that a man that makes a commitment (like being married - for better or worse and in sickness and in health) sticks to it. Period.

Stress is the number reason our health sucks and our minds go - no question. But stress is part of life and a life with purpose is a meaningful life. My life has purpose, yes it is stressful but I have a purpose and that is to care for my Wife and Family. That sort of purpose provides me motivation to bust through any sort of self pity or worry or sorrow. Compared to the refugee camps in Africa or the West bank we have it tit easy.

I simply will not allow my self to fail at this. I'm better than that and so is our Son.

(plus I have a pretty stout policy - she will be taken care of pretty nicely if I die!)