[svandamme]

lol

I rarely get physically mad, i get exited, worked up, i rant occasionally, but rarely do i get physically mad.
Only once got so bad where i almost got to the point of doing damage, had been home for stress/burn out, full week.. they called that grandpa was dying... went back home ( hadn't been there in 3-4 years, no contact), grandpa died, and the whole family agreed to go to the funeral place to visit grandpa when he was first laid out, or how you call it... you know, "prepped"..

My darling mother was the only one not there, i saw grandma's heart, break at the moment she realized he was really gone... sis also cracked, mum not there.

i stormed to her place, on foot, just 1 km away...
she came up with lame arguments that my youngest sister couldn't be left at home...
but her new husband ( who i had never met) was at the place.. he should have stayed at home...

Anyway, he started to interfere... told him to butt out...At this point i was working up pure rage... he kept medling, warned him again..
then he stuck his hand out, and before i knew i had my left hand on his throat, against the wall with his feet dangling... and my right one was cocked for punching...
This is a 50 year old farmers son, heavy built and with plenty of mass...
i've got a skinny build, i've sene chicks with bigger wrists and biceps then me...But it didn't matter, i had him, and i could have set his clock to a different time zone, right there and then..

managed to work up some last second restraint, and walked out.
He's been skittish around me ever since, and that's fine by me..