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Originally Posted by Superman
This is a ticking time bomb, Dave. Right now, as folks can see or at least imagine, I am having some emotional agony. It's painful, but I'm managing. A few years ago I had another emotional experience to deal with and I was not so lucky. I was not hospitalized, but it took several doctors and some pretty regulated drugs to get the tapes to stop playing in my head. I was truly a mess. I am fearful right now of a relapse of that. I think I'll be okay, but it's just another shot across my bow. I'm not going to ignore this one. I'm going to pursue this numbness problem before it rises up and smites me, or another innocent bystander, again.
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Heh, it is funny. Some of my close friends tell me that they consider me their 'rock'. As in, I'm always the same old Dave, nothing gets me down, I'm always smiling and persevering. This I take as the highest compliment, as I am humbled by the opportunity to be of service to my friends. Nonetheless, it seems like there might be a lesson there, somewhere.
I almost feel like I'd let everybody down if I had a meltdown.
This thread is about you though - don't let me highjack. The Dave abides. Coming from a fellow dysfunctional guy, I don't think you lost an opportunity here. If anything, you stayed too long and perhaps missed other opportunities. My crystal-ball prediction - when the right woman comes along, she will elicit that emotional response within you. The challenge for you will be to learn from your experiences in approaching it...yet without overthinking it. That seems to be when we are our own worst enemies. Over-analyzing.
Had a girlfriend, can't even remember which anymore, that would regularly blow up at my tendency to overanalyze. Guilty as charged....