Hey Super, sorry to read about your dilema, truly. I hope you find some relief in your peeps posts here? I'm not sure we can relate with each other, but I can tell you that I've been a student of life my whole life and I'm constantly searching for the 'answer'.
Just before I hit 30 I realized that I needed to make my marriage work, so I did and I always will, that's who I am now and its not going to change. So we're different there. But I have discovered a secret to life that I'm currently enjoying playing with.......
We create happiness within by the realization of new and worthwhile dreams and goals; beit relationships, stuff, what have you. Most of our dreams and goals come from seeds of understanding what we don't want, the challenges in our lives. These challenges create new desires.
The 'sweet spot' of life comes from the realization that you are accomplishing one of these personal goals, at the moment that you realize you've won the game...... sweet victory. It may last only a moment, a day, month or year; but it never lasts. From the sweet spot of life we must dive into the challenges head first to determine our new dreams and desires; then work towards those new desires and when we hit the sweet spot again, ohhhhh, that's life.
Somewhere along the line people get conformed, they lose hope, they quit searching, they get complacent or they defer their desires. Go ahead, start over, but get a dream and hold onto it, its the essence of life imo.
Sounds to me like you let a good women go? I'm not sure why, but maybe its because there is no sweet spot left in the relationship? Relationships take work, you get out what you put in. I hope you feel better
