[DonDavis]

I think I understand. Had a convo with a buddy about swerving into oncoming traffic but he didn't get it. More engineer minded folks get it. I think it's about the action itself and not about wanting to end your life. Kinda like analyzing the action or process. Or what could/would you do on the way down.

Side question, sort of... do you procrastinate? Do you operate best under pressure?
I sometimes find I blatantly put off stuff till the very end and then bust my hump to get it done on time.

And I could never commit suicide. It's by far, the ultimate act of selfishness. Calling it anything else is flat out ridiculous, IMHO.