Totally understand it. Sometimes when driving on an overpass I wonder what it would be like to take a quick left turn and fly off the road. Or pull into oncoming traffic. Or drive off a cliff. Or a Norm for that matter.
I've thought plenty about suicide. 30+ years of insomnia, anxiety, over-work, and being a twisted/frustrated creative will do that to you. I don't because of Calvin. Since I pretty much don't have any other family there wouldn't be that much burden on others but totally unfair to him.
Only thing that keeps me sane is music. One reason I'm back gigging my butt off again. Life is short and you're dead for a long time. The time to play is now.
Saturday night at Dakota Lounge - killed with our set, crowd demanded an encore, promoters want us back next month. That keeps the demons quiet for awhile...
